Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Being part of a species that's just 1% of the population

I recently took an MBTI test online. For those of you dumb freaks who don't know what that is..its a personality test based on Jung and Myers and Briggs and categorizes personalities into 16 types. Whew I managed to say that in a single sentence! Anyway, I finally know why I am the way I am. I'm an INTJ aka Introvert-Intuitive-Thinking-Judging person. The funny thing is I always felt like the odd person out, like I stand out in a crowd. Its like being head and shoulders above everyone else and being able to see things no one else can...that to the logical INTJ (who I didn't know I was at the time) is so absurd coz its so clear. In college I was labeled as arrogant (that was the word that defined me according to some morons who didn't even know me) and to me it made no sense coz I wasn't arrogant at all, if anything I was the opposite. Even as a little child I was always daydreaming. I would get lost in my own thoughts and ideas. I was always theorizing and coming up with concepts. I had my own methods and would usually stick to them. Everything always had to make sense to me. My social manners were awful and I still dread going into places FULL of new people. I hate making small talk. I'd much rather talk stuff that has value or meaning and is not a waste of time. Dont get me mistaken, I do love the company of people I'm comfortable with. My husband is an ENFP who is the quintessential people-person. I would envy him his perfect social skills and the friends he would make of even strangers. I did learn a lot of stuff from him but being the true ENFP he is, he NEVER finishes any of his projects and is a bit of a scatterbrain. INTJs CANNOT tolerate incompetence and inefficiency so there were some tough times in this marriage let me tell you! But in certain situations I would tell him this or this is going to happen, and it did just as I'd predicted. I thought I was psychic or something, but now I see its just plain logic and coz I can see the big picture faster and easier than anyone else. People do think I'm ruthless, cold, heartless, but I just know what has to be done and to me its better to get going on that than to get upset or emotional about it.

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